Trying to Understand

In all confusing situations and circumstances where we just don't understand each other, we often ask why? Why did this happen? Why me? Why are we doing this? Why is that person acting like this?

In an effort to communicate to each other our deepest desire and true thoughts we scramble for the right words to convey our emotions and feelings and most often it becomes a messy fret of - I don't know. I don't know. I don't know...and a whole lot of grey hairs. You're left feeling defeated and undeniably lost. It is healthy to step out of that setting and reflect on your thoughts and feelings. Looking at it in different perspectives will allow your mind to narrow down what is your truest intentions. Of course other people deal with hard times in other ways, but how does your heart heal if you don't take the time to care for yourself. People often rebel and block off others who are trying to help. Stop being a whiny bitch and know that those people care for you. I used to get very grumpy and frustrated when my parents nag at me because I don't like it when people tell me what to do and I'm sure I'm not the only one that feels this way. Positivity isn't meant to scold you and make you feel less of a person, it's meant to uplift you and remind you that no human can judge your worth and you are responsible for your own happiness.

Moving along, this post was suppose to explore behavior. Everyone may heard of the water story involving the pessimist, the optimist, the realist, and the opportunist.

Here's a quick modified definition for those that have no idea what I'm referring to:

The pessimist expects the worst, is clouded with negative assumptions, is depressed most of the time, has a lot of doubt, and is skeptical in new and unfamiliar circumstances.
The optimist expects a favorable outcome for everyone, is positive and hopeful.
The realist observes and take things for what they really are and uses scientific reasoning.
The opportunist is quick to take advantage of any opportunity for personal gains, is adaptable, and is easy to be corrupted by personal greed.

It's actually really silly to define a person in one of these 4 categories because honestly human behavior is dependent on several factors: genetics, situation, environment, consciousness, society, religion, education, politics and even stereotypes. All of these many factors intertwine and relates to our own identity. We learn through education how to reason, how to plan and foresee where we want to be. We learn through religion that we are all imperfect but should seek divinity and holiness. We learn through politics that there is a whole world out there with billions of people agonizing over common ground. We learn through history that the cycle of oppression and hatred leads to war. We learn in our communities how diverse we are and how it is so easy to try to make sense of things by grouping ourselves with "the same kind of people", when internally we indefinitely are only human. Since we all are learning so much about ourselves, we use it in businesses through marketing and negotiating and thus targeting our customers, expanding our businesses, making partners and allies, contributing to necessary products and services that we ultimately think we all need to live. Also, don't forget the scamming, murdering, and repeating that same cycle of oppression and hatred.

Why is a powerful question that has unlimited answers. It is where we choose to stand in the seesaw of good and evil that determines our answers and what we do with that answer.

As a young adult in her 20's, I think about this not trying to make sense of it all, but in hopes of realizing my own ambitions. I was so sure that the point of everything was to obtain a career suited for one's passion and interest. But that's just me trying to simplify what life is. I unfortunately have too many interest in all sorts of things and because I like so many things I learn to do them extremely well, so I'm definitely screwed if I can't prioritize my likings, but that'll just take forever... Scumbag brain, you've done it again!

To my readers <3
Sorry if this post was mentally draining. I am brain pooped after writing it in one go and I don't feel like editing, so please excuse the grammar errors and lack of pictures. (T_T)