The purpose of this blog post isn't to tell you how much of a potato I've become, but instead I will go on to ramble about how relatable the characters are to my life. I went to high school at College Preparatory Architecture Academy and during my junior year, I really thought I would be an architect. Not that I'm as enthusiastic about Architecture as Ted Mosby is, but his character reminded me of who I used to be. I used to be a day dreamer, a hopeless romantic, a believer. And no matter how alone I felt sometimes, I always held my head high because I believed I was destined for something greater.
A few weeks ago, I had this random talk about the show with a random person I will not name. He asked me - "What are your dreams?" I was dumbfounded for a few seconds or longer. Who in the World would ever ask another person that question out loud? Isn't that a rhetorical question you ask yourself in the shower, when you're having trouble sleeping, or when you're bored with everyday life. So after a hilarious LOL moment in my head, I said to him - "I don't know. I'm living to find out." And he went on to ask me other deep head scratching questions like - "Didn't you have a dream when you were a kid?" I said - "Of course! Doesn't every kid have a dream? Some to be a police officer, a singer, an actor, a lawyer, a doctor? What did you want to be?" He said - "I want to be Ironman". And so in my head, I'm thinking this guy is totally screwing with me and so I awkwardly forced a laugh. What came out of my mouth next is something I don't think I myself even believe wholeheartedly, but I said - "There are people that dream of a fairytale. They blindly chase after the impossible thinking that's the only way that they'll be happy but they forget that you can be happy right now and do what you want today. Dreams. I don't believe in that kinda stuff anymore. You're not gonna get there if you're not doing anything today. I'm tired of people just talking about it." It was silent for a while and I looked at him and thought he must resent me, he is probably cursing me in his head right now - [that righteous bitch who thinks she's some hot shot that's too good to have crazy dreams.] Right then, I realized I've changed. I'm no longer Ted Mosby, I'm Robin Scherbatsky - a cocky and independent adventurist, who would do anything for the acknowledgement and love from her parents [dad], who's greatest fear is failure, who wants to make a name for herself, who tries to appear professional in a job she's overqualified for, who's not ready to think about a real future - family, marriage, kids.
Is having dreams stupid? With all my heart, I don't think it's stupid. I think it's what makes you special.
The outer me is a realist and the inner me is a crazy optimist like a turtle consistently moving forward, I keep a barrier around me to shield me from failures and disappointments but inside I really want to run so badly.
In the words of Marshall Eriksen - "When did we stop believing?" Every kid has a dream, but like every kid, every adult needs a dream too. I've had epiphanies and life crisis when my insides are yelling - What the fuck are you doing with your life? I never wanted to be a businesswoman that sits in front of a computer all day making rich people more rich. There must be a bigger world out there. I want to help others, I want to test my capabilities and do everything I can to make a positive impact in people's lives. I want to save the World!
Reality is life right now, but a sprinkle of positive optimism sure helps a lot getting through the day. So no matter how cynical society is or how immoral the World is becoming, it's best to have cute reminders with the image of Lily Aldrin, who is always supporting your dreams no matter how farfetched and impractical they are.
I sincerely didn't want to crush anyone's dream, I just wanted him to see how beautiful life is now. I wanted to say - "don't forget your journey, don't overlook how awesome your life is." But as important it is to live for today, I'm reminded that it's okay to dream, you little dreamer, because that hope in you allows you to go on, and that's what really counts, that you are moving on and life goes on.
**sorry, I didn't mention Barney Stinson, since I don't think Barney and I share any personality traits, but he's a funny guy, I admit.
To my readers <3,
May you continue making wishes on a star. Good night, my dear.
