"We accept the love we think we deserve"I think that quote is the most outrageous thought one should ever loose sleep over. You don't accept something because you think you deserve it. If we think we deserve it, why do we even try?Unexpected things happen all the time. Genetics and environment was a given - not a choice! Who are you to ever say someone's life is the way it is because that's what they deserve? Who are you to ever downgrade yourself for mere convenience because you think you don't deserve better. When your immediate social circle starts forming opinions on who you are, it's habitual that you would believe what they say, you would then become what they say. That's because you are too sheltered and influenced by what others think of you. It's important for a person to develop their own character by making their own choices. Don't ever let anyone decide who you are, you tell them who you are.
I'm a strong believer in YOU. You are not hopeless. That's why I think people should always be optimistic. To set your mind on something and go after it until you get it - no excuses. This goal-oriented viewpoint has pushed me to do things I thought I never could, actually let me rephrase that - pushed me to do things others thought I never could. And let me tell you, it feels good to prove others wrong. It's like you've always wanted to slap their faces for every hurtful things they said to you, but since you're not a violent person you hold it in. At last, when you improve yourself, it's like you let go of a ton of weight that's been holding you down. There's a cheerful bounce to your walk, a confidence in your aura, and of course you'll get hate for that, but the astounding part about it all is that - you don't give a fuck what others think of you anymore.
I don't want to talk like I know everything, because I sure in hell do not, (don't be ridiculous). Actually, being goal-oriented is not always a positive thing. I've recently been feeling super shitty because I can't decide what my next goal is. I thought the point of goals was to serve as a stepping stone to one's ultimate goal, but what if you reached that ultimate goal and achieved everything you ever wanted, what's next? People think that satisfaction is what makes life worth while. I think that's just a fairytale we make up; it's the "dream" that we think that's unattainable now but if we work hard we'll get there someday and happiness and unicorns will be awaiting at the rainbow gate. It's strange for me to think about a future not made up of success stories... because I don't correlate happiness with success. I feel bits of happiness in the act of giving, helping, caring for others. Not something I have to work hard for, but something I genuinely want to do; it's not an exchange, but something I can dedicate my life to...what is it that I want?
To my readers <3
Stay strong!
