I am thankful that I woke up.
I am thankful that I have good friends.
I am thankful that I have a family.
I am thankful I have a place called home.
I am thankful I am alive.
I am thankful for another chance.
Smile that your journey continues on despite yesterday's mistakes, yesterday's trouble, yesterday's sadness... Smile that you have T-O-D-A-Y to start anew.
It is incredible how much your life can change within a few years, a few months, a few days, and even within seconds. The things you say and the things you do might not have been what you planned for. Some times unexpected events can complicate your life, but some times these unexpected events and the complications they bring allows you to grow by giving you strength to move on and opening your mind to see the bigger picture that maybe life goes on, and hey, maybe you will be happier this way. You breathe out a sigh of relief when you conquer the pain you thought you can never defeat. You let out a cry because you did not believe that you could but you did it.
"I want to do everything a human can possibly do. Even if I'm not good at it, I want to try it all, and then I will know." (Anonymous)
Some people are confident with their future that they leave no room to experience other parts of life and some people are detrimentally confused that they are desperate to find a sole purpose to justify living. Wherever you fall in the spectrum, I have a serious question to ask - What the hell do people know about life to judge if a person is living the right way or the wrong way? Why do you think only rich people can be happy? Why do you think that a blind man must have a hard life? You cannot live someone else's life, you can only live yours, and what you think about your life does not apply to what other people think about their life. I think it's pretty fucked up when people try to understand each other by saying, "I know how it feels like"... no you really don't.
"Understanding each other" is not what humanity craves for anymore; I think in this generation, we crave to be accepted for who we are.
The journey to discovering you - to be a complete you, I thought would be a really sad and lonely road. I have met many people and not even a handful I call friends. But the few friends that I have, I truly adore because they made me understood that it doesn't have to be a solo adventure all the time. Having good company assures me that I am living a fulfilling life. Some times I hold back a little because it is intensely tempting to get absorbed in a social circle especially when the circle contains a variety of pretty and interesting people with good vibes everywhere, ALL-THE-TIME. I start to loose track of what day it is, what time of the day it is, how it feels like to do nothing, and it kinda scares me because I don't want to loose my sense of self. It is that sense of self that drives me to keep pushing the envelope when it has already been sealed. It is the energy inside of me that is so eager to explode bubbles all around until I can catch it all.
I struggle to figure out if fate is a straight line that I sometimes walk backwards on or if the universe is just a bunch of dots in the sky and fate is the picture we make when we connect the dots...
[to be continued...]
