Maybe once or twice I've heard that the "real world" is a constant battle of what is yours and what is not. I never took it too seriously thinking why can't we all just live a simple and happy life. Seeing the world in my early 20s is a complete 180 from the fantasies I've dreamt of in my teens. Adulthood has given me a different perspective in fairness and equality and all the terms one can use to describe a perfect democracy. Why does the most meaning quality we value so unrealistic to what the world is now? Commonality becomes a false principle since our value spectrum differs because no one person measures their priorities the same way as another to the same extent.
My parents raised me to experience life on my own. However, they were very particular about etiquette and character. My parents never really worried about my decisions because they know how hard I can be on myself. I was always given the freedom to do what I want within moral boundaries and take responsibility over any consequences my actions may have caused. Not that I was naughty kid. I was an obedient little girl with a mature attitude in life. Growing up I've ingested all that I could to get a good education and to be the top student in my class. I believed that education could elevate my life. In school, kids learn that everyone has a voice, everyone can make difference. Then I wake up to the "real world" and it startles me what little truth I know about one's place in the world. Recently, I've been hounded on because my work ethics are different, because it is unacceptable to have an opinion in a conservative business environment. Excuse me, I meant to say it's unheard of for a young girl in her early 20s to have ambitious goals because it threatens the position of higher ups who've stupidly work their asses off with their mouth shut for many years. We say to ourselves that we've overcome discrimination/gender roles/slavery/racism, but look around and see how others are being treated, how YOU are being treated by others, and how YOU treat others.
One doesn't see their own greatness when they go through life being ridiculed for being who they are. Does it hurt others that I say what I feel, that I do what I think is right? If it doesn't, then why do I need to feel that I am wrong?
My Christian faith has bestow in me a sense of humility and forgiveness. People are weak and the world is deluded with sin, but we can't bash someone for their mistakes because who are we to judge others when they are lost and unwilling to change. Maybe I am holding onto my dignity when I say - sincerity needs no defense. You do not need to defend yourself for being you. And when you face hostility and hate, you do not need to lower yourself and hate back. I always take criticism with a poker face. Criticism is good when it helps you grow and become a better person. Criticism is useless when it destroys your self confidence and stomps on your will to try again.
There will be people who look down on you for no reason. There will be people who can't wait to see you fail. There will be people who will rejoice in your sadness. And you know what? Karma is a bitch. You are strong and you know where you are going in life, don't waste your time defending yourself to people who can't see you for you - a special person.
To my readers <3
Huggles all around, you can do it, don't give up!
One doesn't see their own greatness when they go through life being ridiculed for being who they are. Does it hurt others that I say what I feel, that I do what I think is right? If it doesn't, then why do I need to feel that I am wrong?
My Christian faith has bestow in me a sense of humility and forgiveness. People are weak and the world is deluded with sin, but we can't bash someone for their mistakes because who are we to judge others when they are lost and unwilling to change. Maybe I am holding onto my dignity when I say - sincerity needs no defense. You do not need to defend yourself for being you. And when you face hostility and hate, you do not need to lower yourself and hate back. I always take criticism with a poker face. Criticism is good when it helps you grow and become a better person. Criticism is useless when it destroys your self confidence and stomps on your will to try again.
There will be people who look down on you for no reason. There will be people who can't wait to see you fail. There will be people who will rejoice in your sadness. And you know what? Karma is a bitch. You are strong and you know where you are going in life, don't waste your time defending yourself to people who can't see you for you - a special person.
To my readers <3
Huggles all around, you can do it, don't give up!

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