The Simple Things

"Find happiness in the simple things"

It sounds easy right? But to a dreamer, it's never enough. The dreamer says, "don't ever settle, there must be something greater".

These last few weeks, I attempted to find happiness in the simple things by finding the easy way out. All I sought was an escape from this bitter feeling of everyday life. When a single day can be so dry and suffocating; when living doesn't feel like living, it feels like dying. I decided what I needed was immediate satisfaction, a fast change, a quick 'pick me up', a load of distraction! I wanted to go out and be around people almost everyday and when I'm not around people I wanted to be with nature because i couldn't stand facing a reality I wasn't happy with. I wanted so much to forget, to not think, to not feel, to live like a zombie and be content.

People I hanged out with would talk about relationships, secret crushes, girl/boy drama and I'm over here like a grey sheep trying to be supportive, but in my head I'm screaming - OMG! Who gives a shit!! Happiness comes from within, not through someone else.

Then, I stopped. Sometimes when you're at your lowest you just hope that an inspirational person can cure your heart, but it doesn't work that way, all the time. You, bring out inspiration. There's a tiny light in you, no matter how dim it is, it will never die out even in the roughest of storms. Instead of desperately reaching out a hand for someone to save you, please stand tall and take a leap of faith - you got this, you can and you will get through this.

Returning to the original quote, "find happiness in the simple things". The simple things is not the same as what everyone else does on a daily basis. The simple things are not routine things that barely gets you through the day. The simple things are things you've left in your closet, under your bed, in the bookshelf. They are things you put aside to go to work, to take care of your family, to tidy up the house. They are things that "used to" bring you so much joy. Do you think it's time you revisit your hidden treasures? Sometimes it takes going backwards to find your true passion. Sometimes you need to stop and be thankful for where you're at. And sometimes you need to move forward because life has so much to offer and the future, though scary, though unclear and hazy it is - the future is where you're meant to be.

There's no one stopping you from being the person you want to be. Don't give your dreams a deadline. It's okay to not have goals, to not know what your dreams are. Go on, live on to find out, and believe that you'll make it, because you are worth it. Your life is worth it. And there's no other ending than the happy ending, you create.

Today, I feel so good to be writing here again.

To my readers <3,
How I've miss you so! Take care, my darlings~